So I'm about to get a little personal in this one. That is always the best time to write isn't it? lol anyway I have had so many asking about connecting with their own spirit guides and how to access them. Everyone is different and may access their guides in different ways but I find that I have connected with mine in my dream state and also within my intuition. My reasoning for wanting to write about this today is to kind of explain what happens when you DONT listen to your guides or your intuition!
So most know I had a baby in December, right after I had baby my guides were ready to put me back to work almost immediately, I was at a point where they basically said "Its time now, back to work". With that comes a shop, back to doing readings, energy work, manifesting work etc. Now I also have been working full time somewhere outside of my personal business through 2020 when I was pregnant (doing readings pregnant was very weird for me lol). Throughout the year at this place I really had experienced some things that I honestly have NEVER in my life experienced or felt, I had my first ever racist encounter, and surrounded by a lot of people that do not have the same thinking, a bunch of male power trips, and overall just in a environment where my personality offended weak minds very easily, and honestly have felt under minded as a women in my workplace. I have always usually worked in a male dominated industry outside of my own personal work and have never really dealt with any of this and along with that came the feelings of sadness, not worthy, trying to fix people, putting others before myself or my family, not appreciated, and disrespected in general!
I know I'm ranting here but I promise I am going to get to the point! I am now a little over a year here knowing months ago my time here should have ended . 1 because my guides vividly told me so, 2 I felt the unalignment within my energy field extremely, and 3 I was manifesting things that aligned with me extremely fast! Now we do have our ego selves and our higher selves and I have been going against my higher self or intuition, whichever you prefer because I was letting my ego self keep making justification for the toxic situation I was in, and honestly 1 week into this place and I already knew what type of situation it was, but felt maybe I was guided here to help people move into situations they are suppose to be in. Despite some amazing people I have met there and reconnecting with someone I feel will forever be my best friend, I have been screaming at myself for months, even at my best friend that my energy just does not feel right anymore.
So here I am, 2 months in over a year and things have just been declining tremendously in this specific situation only. All of the other areas of my life, the ones that connect with my purpose and work are thriving, my family is great, there really isn't much to complain about other than this. The people around me are being exposed for how they really are, the belittling just seems to get more intense every single day, and things just seem to tremendously decrease after a digusting racist situation happened with me and my work place. I look at my whole experience and realized how much I learned throughout 2020 and with the pandemic I think it really forced us ALL into a state of learning ourselves and growing from it and really taking off into our own personal spiritual journeys as we transitioned into the 5d from the 3d, and with that being said I STILL kept trying to justify me still being there.
Now those of you who connect with your guides, intuition etc. You may know when you push back on something that is inevitable they WILL MAKE it happen lol. I speak from my own experience here. The universe will work to push you in your TRUE path no matter what, its just whether you will listen or not! The biggest thing to this is when you are true to yourself, the universe/guides/ancestors/god/source whatever you refer to it as will ALWAYS have your back, and in that is a beautiful thing.
I know this was a shit ton of ranting in a way but I wanted to really give you a feel of everything without giving everything lol otherwise this would be a novel, but the point is! Don't waste your time like I did, it wasn't -super long but long enough to where it effected my spirit so badly that it started to take the person that I was and turn me into something that I am not, making me depressed, and right on the verge of letting it just consume me completely. Even the fact of me acknowledging all of this makes my spirit and energy feel a lot better. When energy flows well, that's best for manifesting which you guys know I am obsessed with! I hope this wasn't to much of a rant and I hope I am getting my point across. When your intuition is screaming, LISTEN. When the universe & your guides are obviously showing you, PAY ATTENTION. It took me long enough to realize how much they had already set my path up for me and I just wasn't trusting, and taking my leap of faith.
Feel free to comment, and share any of your personal experiences of not listening to intuition. I know we all have the stories!
Much Love & Light Always